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Last night, I was thinking of what had happened in central China. Thousands of people were buried due to earthquake. Then, a flashback of things happened in the past that made me bowed my head and said "thank you Lord, I did not understand your plan but you saved my life."

October of 2007, I was about to attend an ESL class in Manila for me to go find an ESL job in China. I'm positive though that I can be accepted after I will finish my training. But, mom insisted not to enrol. I was so discouraged that I was unable to have that training. Instead, I called my friend in Thailand for the posibility of teaching English. It was very timely that it's another semester, and so my fund was sufficient enough to look for a job. I was so blessed to find work but it was very challenging. The school where I am teaching is very neophyte to english. I'm the first foreign teacher and so it's really really hard to immerse them in English language. Not one of the students can converse with me, but I have done so much to help them. It's very satisfying and fulfilling seeing them eager to talk to me so that we can understand each other.

Now I realized, could I be one of the many people buried in China if I had the chance of being there? So many questions raised in my mind.... I've been asking God about my struggles in faith. Still thinking if I could stand the tests of my life..... I've been asking God's promises to fulfill in my life. So many times I wandered far away from Him.... then a glimpse of His love shone on me. I'm just so thankful for His wondrous plan. I was discouraged for all the tests and struggles but deep within, I know He has a wonderful mission for me. I praise God for intervening in my life. Amidst depression and discouragements, I know He's still holding on me. I need that faith of a little child. Love and peace to everyone.